Ronda Rousey Just Revealed Her Mental Health to Ellen

February 16th 2016

Taylor Bell

In an emotional interview with talk show host Ellen DeGeneres, UFC fighter Ronda Rousey admitted contemplating suicide following her unexpected loss to fellow fighter Holly Holm.


In her first talk show interview since the loss, Rousey opened up on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" about battling suicidal thoughts after Holm defeated her in one the most highly anticipated fights in UFC history. It was a fight that many expected her to win, even Ellen.

"I was in the medical room and I was down in the corner, and I was like 'What am I anymore if I'm not this?' And I was literally sitting there thinking about killing myself, and that exact moment I'm like, 'I'm nothing. What do I do anymore? And no one gives a shit about me anymore.'"

But Rousey admits that it was the thought of being with her boyfriend, UFC fighter Travis Browne, that helped her find a reason to live.

"To be honest, I looked up and saw my man Travis was standing there and I looked at him and I was like, 'I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive.'"

Rousey continued:

"I haven't told anyone that. I think I've only told him that. But that was what I was thinking. I was meant to have him at my lowest for sure. I don't know if I would have made it without him."

Although Rousey has managed to talk about the loss, she still hasn't been able to watch the tape of her fight, something that she may never be able to do according to her coach Edmond Tarverdyan.

"It’s not about wanting to watch, it’s about whether or not the timing is right or if it’s even necessary,” Tarverdyan told in January.

"I know how to speak to Ronda," Tarverdyan continued. "I know Ronda very well. She doesn’t need to watch that fight. The fight is over. It’s about what we’re doing now. It’s my job to watch the footage and I’m dedicating everything I have to Ronda’s rematch with Holly.”

Despite her hesitancy to watch the fight that almost caused her to throw her entire life away, Rousey continues to carry an optimistic attitude.

"Everyone has their moment of picking themselves off the floor and I'd gone through several of mine but no one had actually seen me go through it and maybe I had to be that example of picking myself off the floor for everyone. And maybe that's what I meant for. And I really do believe that I'm still undefeated because being defeated is a choice. Everyone has losses in their life but I choose to always be undefeated."

According to the Suicide Awareness Voices of Education, suicide is the tenth leading cause of death in the U.S. In addition, 80 percent of all suicides are committed by males and claim the lives of more than 38,000 lives a year in America.

You can see the whole interview here.